I am still having second thoughts on the decision I chose. How could I have even agreed with that creature? I keep on replaying the scene in my mind to know why. Slowing down to the moment I agreed and doubting myself. Did I agree so that humankind and I would no longer have had to deal with him any longer or did I agree because I am still somewhat...fascinated, you could say, that I will once more have the power to create another being with my hands? I am torn right now! Is there still apart of me that wants to keep on...creating...figures? Or am I truly doing this to save others? I mean even my father noticed that my health started to get better as I progressed in creating another creature. Is that a sign that doing this makes me...happy? Ugh, I am disgusted with my self right now. I do not know if I am good or evil. I need answers to these questions!
But before I go on, let me explain the reason why my father questioned me. He saw my pleasant side, but he also sensed my misery. I thought he was onto what I was doing but he surprised me a bit when he brought up Elizabeth. He asked if it had to do with my engagement with Elizabeth but I told him that it was not that. If anything she is the reason why I still have some of my sanity still intact. She is the reason why I still lived. She is the reason why I still find enjoyment in the world. My beautiful Elizabeth...
In the end, I decided to go to England to continue on with the creation of the next creature. It took us a while but we reached London. And on the way, I contemplated that I would try to keep these creations away from my family and Elizabeth as much as I could. My mind cannot begin to imagine losing her....And she still worries about me so much that she insisted on me bring my companion, Clerval, to go along with me. It kills me inside that I am not there to comfort her, but I am the cause of her misery. And I love Elizabeth so much that I cannot even let myself be with her right now. What I would give to protect her from the world, from the monster, from me....
-Victor Frankenstein
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I really like this. You capture his emotions wonderfully, and you discuss every part of his life. It's awesome how well you became him and drew from the events affecting him.(=
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